I dreamed of you last night. You were whole – in a way I can barely remember. You stood there, so it was like the double amputation never happened. It was like your death never happened. You stood there and told me this was the last time we would see each other, and I pressed my youngest child into your arms and then left, and wailed in my dream, because I had ruined the last goodbye with my fear I woke up then, in the dark, to the sounds of the frogs in the creek, and the crash of some … Continue reading Staying Awake So I May Sleep